|Who relishes the "potential" to go through things like this again? Picture from hospital stay in October.|
I was there for a long, long lobby wait and exam room wait then a 3 minute visit with my doctor to find out my last CT scan was fine and I still do not have cancer. Why didn't he just call me or have his nurse tell me? Instead of shouting hooray I left tired, angry and very hungry. Now you know I am selfish. The inconvenience of this long wait to see my doctor upset me.
Because of the type of tumors that were removed in October, a doctor at Johns Hopkins who reviewed the pathology, insisted I be checked every three months for two years and every six months for three years after that because I have the "potential" for cancer to invade my body.
I am a very impatient person. I am ashamed of that. Suddenly the "if onlys" began to fill my mind. "If only" Ron had had these kind of check ups to avoid his cancer. "If only" my sil had known of the potential and avoided her breast cancer. "If only" these people in the treatment rooms had been able to avoid chemotherapy and radiation.
My attitude is changed, hopefully my impatience can be checked and I will give thanks that I have been granted this option to remain healthy. My desire will be NOT to reach my "potential". My waiting time will be spent with thoughts of concern and prayers for the healing of others.
As an aside note, I was worrying about Ron being out in the waiting room so long. I knew he must be concerned about the length of time I was in the exam room. Instead I came out to find him happily chatting up a lovely blonde woman, charming her with his tales of the sea. He knows how to pass the time:)